Thursday, August 13, 2009

Disconnected

I feel disconnected from God. I feel an inability to create an intimate relationship. I feel discouraged. Please keep me in your prayers.


Follow up: (09/4/09)
God has shown me a few times. If I want to have that intimate relationship. I have to put in the time and effort. He has shown me what I need to do, and is basically like 'this is what you need to do, go do it'. Which makes me feel worse because it is my responsibility, and makes me feel like a terrible person that I don't spend time with God to create that relationship. So continue to pray for me about that. So that I would have the desire to spend time with God, that it would be something that I look forward to rather than something I see as a requirement like chores or a hw assignment.
more about this in my post 'an intimate relationship'